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Naming Another Year

The Year of Transformation truly lived up to its name.

I know that 2008 was hard for many people, but oh, how I loved this past year. Over the course of those twelve months, I managed to make changes that took me from being a very unhappy, overstressed, exhausted and overwhelmed person, constantly angry as anger was the only thing that kept me from breaking down crying, to someone who is truly, honestly, and unequivocally happy.

In 2008 I left my day job. I wrote about three quarters of a novel; ignoring all the deleted bits and spare files, I have a book that is currently 84,000+ words, and which is beginning to rush full-speed towards its ending. I received a writing grant. I had time and energy to read more than a book a week. I started learning tribal bellydance, and haven't stopped dancing in the kitchen since. I took vacations with friends, to their cottages and mine. I was staff at Alpha (and was conscious for it this time around), and took various trips to the States. I began taking freelance proposal writing contracts. I took the first steps towards dealing with ongoing health problems, with noticeable results. I spent time with family and friends.

The clouds in my brain have parted, and I can think again. I can laugh without the edge of hysteria, or bitterness, or exhaustion; and sleep without waking in a panic over all the things needing to be done. I can create. I like being this person so much better.

And hopefully she can stay. I've named 2009 the Year of Possibility. From fabulous success to bankruptcy and ruin, and everything in between, I feel like anything can happen. The very thought makes me smile.

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brashley46
Jan. 2nd, 2009 05:10 am (UTC)
Yay! Hope we can see that novel some day soon.
talyesin
Jan. 2nd, 2009 03:07 pm (UTC)
Congratulations. You officially rock.
keilexandra
Jan. 2nd, 2009 08:20 pm (UTC)
Hooray!
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